Must be happy

Recently, I was involved in some emotional screw-ups. Over the week, lots of stuff were revolving in my head, I just couldn't seem to concentrate on anything else. I did not have the mood to do anything, not even talking with my parents or get involved in anything.

Then on Sat morning, I woke up early and was lazing around in bed. As usual, I started to think about my issues again, making myself feeling really miserable as a result.

And then it suddenly struck me. I don really have to dwell on my issues. Whats the point when the people making me miserable are not even dwelling on it? Here I am, feeling all screwed-up and messed-up and there they were, happily living their lives.. WTF..

And so now I am determined to live a happy life, like before when I was just a happy, simple and innocent girl. I am resolved to not think about what happened and be happy. I want to be happy, I MUST be happy! I had been moody and messed up for such a long time and now its time to move on. Just like taking a train. There will be a point when you have to get off the train, let the door of the train close and let the train move on. The station of regret, hurt and whatever crap is in the past and now its time to get off at the station of happiness and light. Thats life. There are many stations where one has to experience and staying in one particular station for too long will just make one stagnant.

Its now time for me to move to another station. I am not going to let anything or anyone hurt me anymore. Its time.