Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Ang Baos

I am always fascinated by ang baos. Please take note that I am not only talking about the cash inside but also about the pictures or images on it.

These are some of the interesting ones that I received during the CNY.


Lizardy adventure

"Eelin, whats Meow Meow doing?! Why is she digging your sofa!"

"What? I have no idea, I am in the shower lah!"

I went to take a closer look at what the pussy was doing and found a cute lizard staring back at me. It was trying frantically to dig closer into the edge of the sofa so as to avoid any unneccessary attention from me and from Meow Meow.

"Oh, theres a lizard in your sofa. Its trying to hide inside."


Oooo... kay....., that was a very big reaction, coming from someone who always seem to be in control of herself. I guess when it comes to creepy crawlies, no matter how much control you have, we females will always lost it.

Eelin came out of the shower and ran towards the den.

"Where?? Where?"

"Calm down. Let me try and get it out.."

I pushed the cushion as far back as possible and tried to pull the lizard by its tail out of the sofa. Big Mistake.

"Oops, the tail broke.."

"WHAT?? Then how?! I want that thing out!"

"Calm down, calm down.."

Second try. I plucked the lizard by its body and perhaps it was too tired from all the action, it was a baby after all, it just sat on the sofa calmly and waited for me to get it out. I scooped it out with my palms and clammed them tight, trapping the little thing inside my 2 palms.

"Now what? Where do I throw this thing?"

"I don know! Throw it out of the window!"

"No! That would kill it. I tell you what, open the front gate so I can let crawled outside. Get the keys."

"I have no idea where I put the keys. How how??"

"I have no idea! Just get the damn keys! The thing is jumping crazily in between my palms and its bloody ticklish! Just open the front gate!"

Everything was falling apart. Eelin was running from the living room to her bedroom and then to her kitchen searching for her bag which contain her keys. I was trying to keep myself from throwing the poor little lizard out of the window and stifling my laughter at the same time. You have no idea how ticklish one tiny little lizard can be when its jumping in between your palms..

"Faster! Its damn ticklish!!"

"Got it!"

Finally. Eelin opened her gate and I rushed out, throwing the lizard onto the ground and the little thing promptly crawled into the other apartment.

"Oops, you just released it into my neighbour's place."

"Oh well. Its either them or us and I rather its them!" I laughed evilly, walking to her toilet to wash my hands.

"Oh yah, I forgot about the tail."

"What? Where? Where is it?" Eelin jumped up from where shes been sitting on the sofa.

"There!" I took the still twitching little tail from under the cushion on her sofa and held it up for her to see.

"OMG! Throw it out! Anywhere out of the house! "

"Haiyoh, its only a teeny weeny lizard lah.."

"I hate lizards.."

"Hey, I just saved you from a lizard!"

"Yah right!"

I wonder what kind of adventure we will have tonight.. Anything but cockroach or beetles please...

Monday, January 30, 2006

Shake that Doggie

To get into the mood of CNY, I think all dance clubs in Singapore should encourage this !

Come' on people, its the Year of the Dog!

Shady, Aftermath
There she goes, shaking that ass on the floor
Bumpin and grindin' that pole
The way she's grindin that pole
I think I'm losing control

Get buzzed, get drunk, get crunked, get fucked up
Hit strip club don't forget ones get your dick rubbed
Get fucked, get sucked, get wasted, shit faceted
Pasted, blasted, puke drink up, get a new drink
Hit the bathroom sink, throw up
Wipe your shoe clean, got a routine goin'
Still got a few chunks on them shoestring showin'
I was dehydrated till the beat vibrated
I was revibed as soon as this bitch gyrated
Them hips and licked them lips and that was it
I had to get Nate Dogg here to sing some shit

Two to the one from the one to the three
I like good pussy and I like good trees
Smoke so much weed you wouldn't believe
And I get more ass than a toilet seat
Three to the one from the one to the three
I met a bad bitch last night in the D
Let me tell you how I made her leave with me
Conversation and Hennessey
I've been to the muthafuckin mountain top
Heard muthafuckers talk, seen 'em dropped
If I ain't got a weapon I'ma pick up a rock
And when I bust yo' ass I'm gon' continue to rock
Getcha ass off the wall with your two left feet
It's real easy just follow the beat
Don't let that fine girl pass you by
Look real close cause strobe lights blind

We bout to have a party (turn the music up)
Let's get it started (Go head shake your butt)
I'm lookin for a girl with a body and a sexy strut
Wanna get it poppin baby step right up
Some girls they act retarded
Some girls are bout it bout it
I'm lookin for a girl that will do whatever the fuck
I say everday she be givin it up

Shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
Come on girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
Ohh girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
Come on girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me

I'm a menace, a dentist, an oral hygentist
Open your mouth for about four or five minutes
Take a little bit of this fluoride fillin'
Swish but don't spit it, swallow and I'll finish
Yeah me and Nate d-o double g
Looking for a couple bi-tches with some double d's
Pop a little champagne and a couple E's
Slip it in her bubbuly, we finna finna have a party

Have a party (turn the music up)
Let's get it started (Go head shake your butt)
I'm lookin for a girl I can fuck in my hummer truck
Apple Bottom jeans and a big ol SLUT
Some girls they act retarded
Some girls are bout it bout it
I want a bitch to sit at the crib with no panties on
Knows that she can but she won't say no
Now look at this lady all in front of me, sexy as can be
Tonight I want a slut, would you be mine?
I heard you was freaky from a friend of mine

Now I hope you don't get mad at me
But I told Nate you was a freak
He said he wants a slut, hope you don't mind
I told him how you like it from behind

Shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
Cmon girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
Ohh girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
Cmon girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me

We bout' to have a party (turn the music up)
Let's get it started (go ahead shake your butt)
I'm lookin for a girl with a body and a sexy strut
Wanna get it poppin baby step right up
Some girls they act retarded
Some girls are bout it bout it
I'm lookin for a girl that will do whatever the fuck
I say everday she be givin it up

There she goes, shaking that ass on the floor
Bumpin and grindin that pole
The way she's grindin that pole
I think I'm losing control

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Why oh why?

CNY is supposed to be a time for your family and relatives and loved ones. Everyone is supposed to come together regardless of their busy schdeules for few days of quality time and catching up. The festival actually begins on the eve, with the reunion dinner. All members of the family will sit down for a well-deserved feast and its supposed to be really crowded and noisy. Supposed.

I missed my reunion meal, which was supposed to be in the afternoon for my family and I had to be in the office for the whole day yesterday. Ended up having cold leftovers alone. And even that, my pathetic meal was interrupted by calls from the office. It just happened that something went wrong and I had to attend to it. Almost had to rush back to office in between my bites.

On the first day of the CNY, everything was as per before. Routine. Woke up late, had a nice warm bowl of noodles. Went online for a while, then had a shower before going out for visitation. And then everything went downhill. Well, to a certain extent.

It seemed that I just did not fit anywhere in my family. Not too old and not too young. Fine by me. I am not in the mood to actually have small talks with anyone either. Ended up rewatching Narnia with my young cousins.

After dinner, sis went out with her boyfriend, bro went to catch a show with his army mates, parents went dating. That leaves me. Alone. Again. Again. Again.

Went home by myself from my uncle's place. Slept all the way back on the train and almost missed my stop. Came home to an empty house and saw Ozzie alone. Poor thing was locked up the whole day in the kitchen.

Went to take a slow and long shower and brought out all my conditioners, toners, scrubs, moisturizers, treatment etc. God knows that I have tons of those. Basically applied everything from head to toe.

After that, went to let Ozzie out. Poor girl was so affected by being locked up whole day that she did not even seem to enjoy her new found freedom of the day.

And now its back to my iB. Ranting away on my blog. Whats the point of having CNY when I always feel out of place, even with my own family.

I hate my life, waiting for something to happen everyday and yet having no idea what is going to happen. I hate putting on a happy exterior and all the while tearing apart inside.

Something is wrong here.

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Relatives = vultures

I never realized that the reunion meal actually meant so much to me..

Sitting alone in the office on Chinese New Year eve, (its my day to do some stupid LTA duty) is so damn bloody unbearable..! I should be at home, playing with my cousins, chatting with my uncle, auntie and granny, not alone in the stupid office, listening to the radio alone, pathetically and dozing off.. Sigh..

Tomorrow is going to be more unbearable.. Any single, unattached young adult who tell me that he or she is not tired of visting relatives during any festive seasons is either:

  1. Lying through their big fat soggy asses
  2. Loves their relatives so much that they really do not mind their nosy interrogation

I am very sure its the former.

Come on, CNY is like a form of interrogation season for me. Every year nosy aunties and uncles (yes, I realized that as males get older, they tend to get nosier too) would just probe me for any news on my marital status.

"Aiyoh, why still single and not attached? You are not young anymore liao leh, don want to get left on the shelf leh. See, your younger sister already happily attached. You want to remain a spinster ah?"

In case, you are wondering, I have like 4 aunties, 2 uncles on my mum's side and 3 aunties and 1 uncle on my dad's side. Together with their spouses, that would make 10 pairs of nosy old couples interrogating me on why I am still single. Take my word for it when I say its seriously really very stressful.

Especially when they all swarm towards you as you just step into the house and just start shooting off their questions. Just imagine a poor defenseless lass getting surprised by vultures and lions.

Ok that was a rather lame analogy and I am getting a little carried away, but you get my point.

And its fucking bored and stuffy in the office here! Dammit..

On a sidenote, Happy Lunar New Year to all my fans here..! Enjoy your holidays!

Phallic pole

I was on the train with Eelin last night and we were standing near the doors, holding onto those metallic poles. While talking to her, I unconsciously grabbed the pole with my palms and rubbed it, playing with my handprint smudges. I continued doing that while talking to Eelin at the same time, until suddenly she burst into some tight giggles.

"Whats wrong?"

She gave me a rather tight smile and whispered to me.

"I think you are generating some rather phallic thoughts in that man in white over to your right."


I turned around and saw a man in white over to my right looking away from me.

"He was smiling foolishly while looking at you running your hands along the pole. Its either cos he thinks you are cute or he is having some thoughts about you doing what you are doing to the pole to his you-know-where. I have a very strong feeling that its the latter."

"Huh??" Wah lau! I was just playing with my handprint smudges!"


Thursday, January 26, 2006

Of cabbies and phones

My new Sony Ericsson phone slipped out when I was getting out of my cab while coming back home from work earlier. I did not even reazlize it until late at night and then when I did, I panicked. Without my phone, I am effectively paralysed at work.

Called the phone and the cabbie answered it only after 3 calls. Turned out, he had no idea how to unlock my phone. Thank God for the keypad locking function!

Wanted to ask him to come all the way from Serangoon but he did not sound willing about it so I went down to Puggol to meet him before he changed his mind about returning me my phone.

Took another cab down all the way to the other end of Singapore and then after some misturnings by cabbie 2, we managed to find the honest cabbie 1, who was rather put off by the waiting. The 2 cabbies almost got into an argument cos of me actually. Cabbie 1 accusing cabbie 2 of purposely taking the wrong turning while cabbie 2 accusing cabbie 1 of giving the wrong directions. I was just stuck in between the 2 cabbies. Phew..

Anyway I am just too happy and relieved to get my phone back...

And the price of this midnight roller-coaster ride?


Wednesday, January 25, 2006

My most loyal fan

I think the award for Most Ardent fan of iRis blog should definitely go out to rijac..! Applause please..

Mr rijac actually told me that he dreamt about me last night! Hahaha!

In his dream, I drove a Mazda-looking car and I was turning out from a bungalow with huge fence when he saw me. I gave him and lift and we went to Esplanade together. Then as we alighted, he saw my turtle and then we went our separate ways.

Now, if thats not considered a loyal fan, I don know what would!

Actually, I would be more flattered if its a wet dream......! Hahahaha!!

Tuesday, January 24, 2006


I need a holiday. Desperately.

No, make that realy really really desperately. Especially after seeing this guy's Flickr photostream

I have never flown on a plane before and that CB seems to be always reminding me of that. Yah I know, I beri sua ku, but hey, I already got a turtle on my back as a proof!

Just kidding lah.


I really would like to go on a holiday. Somewhere far.. Somewhere like Europe or the States. I nearly made up my mind to go Germany 2 years back, having just known Tobi. The only reason that was holding me back was money, as usual.

I think perhaps by the end of this year, I am going to have a holiday, to somewhere far. For some reason, I am never really keen on going to Asian countries. Perhaps cos they all have the same buildings and flavours. I want to go to somewhere old, where the civilizations and cultures there have a long history. Hmm..

Bacrelona, Germany?

Anyone? Tobi? :D

Strange day

This is so dumb..

I got my paycheck yesterday, looked at it and just chucked it away after checking that my pay is correct. And today, at my colleagues' pressure, I took it out and looked through it again. And realized I actually got additional personal bonus. Sheesh..

And I am the only one in my department to get it.

On any other occasions, I would be thrilled to get whatever bonus but the fact that none of my colleagues in my department got it made it just not right. Tongues would wag, tales would be told. And I got my bonus. Damn.

I just found out that Ah Beng is gonna be Daddy for the third time.

But hes not really enthusiastic or thrilled or even want to keep his baby. Actually, I don really blame him. The cost of living in Singapore is so damn bloody high. Having 1 child is fun, two is tough, three is really no joke. Goodness.

However, having said that, I certainly don encourage his course of action. All lives are precious, and its his flesh and blood after all. Just as what Mike said, "You want song, no rubber, so now kenna lah!"

As usual, Mike always seem to have this uncanny ability to hit the bull's eyes. Or in this case, the cock's eyes. Heh heh heh, I am a notti girl...

Anyway, I told Ah Beng, its your baby, your flesh and blood, just accept it and worry about the rest later. Though, he did not look very convinced.

I think I should just send him this

Sunday, January 22, 2006

What is wrong with me?

For some reason I have gotten in the habit of dozing off in the middle of movies, no matter how good the shows are.. There is something very wrong here. I never, ever, ever do that. Ever! Movies, I love going to movies and will never do that but here I was, dozing off in the middle of the shows and I have no idea why! Goodness...

Was watching Proof with CB and NS yesterday and I managed to doze off even before the show started.. Sheesh.. During the whole show, I was fidgeting a lot cos I was trying my darndest to stay awake but to no avail. The only thing that I remembered about the show was the constant shouting and a sex scene. Thats it! Sigh.. Wasted my $9.50 again....

CB and NS were asking me if it was cos of their company and I must state for the record here that its not you guys! I also dozed off while watching movie with Eelin too. So its not the companions but me. Really. Perhaps its just that the theatre was too cold and too dark or just cos I was just too tired.

Been feeling really weird these days. For the last couple of weeks my appetite was huge, I actually put on like 4kg. But then just this week, I lost all appetite. Even Coca buffet did not help to improve it. Had more fun serving the Goddess and the Ball their lunch than eating my share of the buffet. And my temper these days are terrible. Sheesh.. Even threw them on my colleagues and worst of all my customers. Boss had to remind me about customer service. Just the other day, I almost kicked Ozzie cos she just happened to block my path. Jesus...

Tell me what is this

Have you ever been involved with something and when the whole episode ended, you were left wondering what had just happened, confused and miserable cos you were like caught in a whirlpool, unable to control your situation? Its like getting swept off by a hurricane and landed in some strange, unfamilar place, scared and angry that you allowed yourself to be picked up by the hurricane in the first place.

Whats the difference between infatuation and love? Google has quite let me down this time. I am not really satisfied by the answer provided by my best friend..

Actually, on hindsight, I am not exactly interested by the difference between infatuation and love. Probably cos I am not very sure there is a difference in the first place. I am of the opinion that love has to start somewhere and that somewhere should really be infatuation. Or rather, to put it in a more corny way, the seed of love is infatuation. Infatuation makes one blind while love is supposed to open one's eyes to flaws, accepting it and yet, "Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind." So this probably implies that love is blind and as such is really a deeper form of infatuation. Or does it?

The only thing I am very sure about between love or infatuation or whatever you want to call it, is that they hurt, a lot. So much so that the pain actually becomes physical. Isn't that quite amazing? Something that is unseen and yet, can be felt so clearly. Its like having your heart cut out, thrown into a blender, and then made to watch while the blender is switched on and cutting your heart into millions of tiny pieces until nothing is left but a glob of flesh and muscle mixed with tears. And all the while you are able to feel the whole process. After which, you have no idea how to carry on with your life but still have to grit your teeth and force yourself to continue the journey, your life journey, for the sake of others.

The main difference between love and infatuation would be that for infatuation, the pain goes away sooner. After a while, your memories become foggier and foggier until at last, you no longer remember the reason for your infatuation towards that someone and then regrets set in.

Love on the other hand is much more complicated. The pain and anger do not seem to go away, though perhaps lessen a little. Memories still remain as clear as if the whole event just took place yesterday. And yet, there is no regret. No regrets at all.

"I will never be able to forget what happened and let go."

Now I know why.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Help me find my owners!

Paddy's cousin found me at Clementi St13, I am still looking for my human mummy and daddy..

If you happen to see them asking for me, please please help me inform them.. I miss them very much..

Thank you!

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Still a little bit of you in me

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost, your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can’t say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball..

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to cry
So come on courage
Teach me to be shy

It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose

It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

Nice to look at, Painful to hold

Originally uploaded by blurfroggie.

Today was the car showroom's opening day and there were lots of bouquets from suppliers and customers alike.

I just can't resist helping myself.. The roses look so gorgeous..! Sorry, Robyn.. :P

And boy, did I prick my fingers as a result.. Ouch!

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Dog poo poo

This is going to be a really short posting, I just wanna post this memorable incident in my life. Its the first for me after 25 years of blur existence...

I stepped into dog poo poo today, Sat the 14th, 1 day after Fri the 13th. *applause please*

I was admiring a Merc SLK 350 today and smelled something gross. As I stepped closer for a better look at the interior of the car, I felt something squirshy (if theres such a word) underneath my left foot. And then..

"Hahahaha! Iris ah, you stepped on dog shit ah!"

Looked down and there it was, a humongous splat of disgusting greenish and brownish organic substance, emitting a most horrible smell underneath my feet. Errghs...

I supposed my bad luck for the famous Fri the 13th was delayed somehow..

Then again, it might not be considered bad luck if I struck 4D. I managed to get mum to help me buy the car plate number of the SLK for the next 4D.. If I really struck 1st prize..... Need a treat anyone? :D

By the way, in case you are interested, the number is 1000...

Friday, January 13, 2006


Its been so cold these days, not that I am complaining, of course. I love cold and wet weathers, everything seems so much quieter and cleaner during rainy days.

I have always had a thing or two for temperate countries, with the snow and all. I would really love to see and feel real snow during my lifetime. If I have the chance, I might just splurge on a week's holiday in some really cold countries, Switzerland does come into the mind ever so often. Or maybe even Germany, heh!

Tobi once sent me a CD of his hometown and it was so breathtakingly beautiful. The trees, houses, the ice lake and most of all, the long and lonely road in the forest. Imagine yourself walking into your fogged breathe on a long windy road with snowed capped trees as companions on either side, as you meander along the road in the cold. And the quiet peacefulness as you gather your thoughts.

As much as Tobi used to tell me that the winters are not as fun as I imagined it to be, I still prefer to retain a slight amount of romance in my girlish imagination about winters and snow.

I really do think I will love winters!

Soul searching

Whats the nicest thing that you ever did for a fellow human? It does not have to be something extravagant nor does it have to involve a huge amount of money. What matters was that you managed to touch someone's life and make his/her day.

How long did you take to answer this question? Or are you able to answer this question at all?

On the contrary, what was the nastiest thing that you ever did to another fellow human? Something that actually hurt another person so much that their concept of humanity were changed, no matter if its temporarily. Something that actually hurt another person to the core, and left the bitter and stinging taste of hatred in them. Something so drastic that you actually felt so disgusted with yourself.

Again, how long did you take to answear this question? And is it easier to answer than the first?

Its so much easier for me to answer the second question than the first.

Actually, come to think of it, I did not manage to answear the first question at all.. This really says something about me.

I need some soul searching, desperately..

How about you?

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Symbolism of my hum ku!

Having too much time on my hand and unlimited broadband, I decided to surf around to look for the significance of the much misunderstood poor turtle on my back and came up with these results.. Never underestimate the prowess of my turtle man!!!

The Turtle
"The turtle is a creature of the water. Because of its great age and its slow metabolism the turtle is associated with longevity. Turtle medicine can teach new perceptions about time and our relationship to it. It can also help us grow old gracefully and in harmony with our environment. When the pace of life becomes too hectic the turtle shows us how to slow down and go with the flow.

Turtles have amazing survival skills and strategies. They sense vibrations in the water through their skin and shell. Turtle totems hold the mystery of awakening the senses on both the physical and spiritual levels and can stimulate clairaudience.

Turtles carry their homes on their back. The shell is actually the backbone and ribs of the turtle and serves as home and shelter for it. Those with this medicine should remember not to acquire more possessions then they actually need. The burden of responsibility can become a heavy weight for you to carry.

When turtle is flipped on its back it uses its strong neck to right itself. This can be a reminder to use your own head and inner knowledge to right yourself when your world gets topsy-turvy.

All turtles must come ashore to lay their eggs and they are usually buried. When the eggs hatch they make their way to the water. The link between water and land especially for the purpose of reproduction has great significance.

When turtle shows up in your life, it is time to get connected to your most primal essence. Go within your shell and come out when your ideas are ready to be expressed. The turtle cannot separate itself from its shell and we cannot separate ourselves from what we do to the earth. The way to heaven is through the earth and both are interconnected."

The Turtle

Self contained, creative source. Turtle represents Mother Earth. Informed decisions, planning and adaptability are attributes of Turtle.

Dollars and kilos

A day to relax and a day to take a breather at home, just basically doing nothing and yet I am here, worried about my work tomorrow and about my ever-depleting bank account. Somehow, over the past week, I managed to spend the whole month of my salary and at the rate which I am spending, I think its only a matter of time before I am broke. Gosh, that sounds so scary... Yesterday, I managed to blow like $150 in a single day, on clothes, food, transport and movies of course. Jeeze, I never know that there are so many interesting notches hidden in the central business district of my beloved tiny red island. Add another $150 blown while shopping ALONE on Sunday at Harbourfront, that would make $300 gone in 2 days! $300 in 2 days! Kaoz...! Although the stuff are rather on the high side, I am in too much of a spending spree to really think twice. Its only when I was woken up with a jolt in the middle of the night that the whole idea began to dawn on me and end up, I could not get back to sleep.. Goodness.. I am actually losing sleep over my spending habits...

And then there is my ever growing appetite. Perhaps its nearing that time of the month when my hormones are in a hyperactive mode or perhaps its cos I have started to get more active than before, with the weekly badminton sessions with the good people of SPUG, I find myself getting hungry more often. NOooooooo!!! And I think I have put on a few kilos, though I still did not have the courage to take a look at my weighing scale.. What a dumbass... I can literally eat like 3 meals a day and snack like 3 times in between the meals.. And the stuff that I eat belong to the super unhealthy category, cheese, pizzas, chips, cha kway teow etc.. OMG! Its so fucking scary! I think I am turning into a ball, literally, as predicted dear old daddy!

Yikes, I think I am having another panic attack. Help!!

Saturday, January 07, 2006

The greatest gift

If I could speak in any language in heaven or on earth but didn't love others, I would only be making meaningless noise like a loud gong or a clanging cymbal.

If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I knew all the mysteries of the future and knew everything about everything, but didn't love others, what good would I be?

If I had the gift of faith so that I could speak to a mountain and make it move but without love, what good would it be to anybody.

If I gave everything I have to the poor and even crucifixed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn't love others, I would be of no value whatsoever.

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Compliments from Howdy

A new wardrobe!

Finally a new wardrobe!

As advised by the good people of the "iRis' blog fanclub", I decided to delay my plans to get a brand new Powerbook and instead invest in revamping my bedroom. The first thing would be to dump my old, smelly, overused and overstocked wardrobe. Hah! Got 2 identical wardrobe for my sis and me. Dumped all my cosmetics, clothes and bags into it..

Heres the before and after pictures.. A tiny peek into the boring world of Ms blurfroggie. Hah!

Before. My mum was so excited with having 2 new wardrobes that she actually cleared out my old one 3 days before the arrival of the new one. I had to survive 3 days without a wardrobe and I tell ya, that was a really terrible affair, for a girl especially! I had to dig out, literally my clothes from cartons and boxes on the floor and all my clothes were crumpled as a result. Phew.

After. The outer look.

A hairy episode

I am always so affected by what I saw on CSI. In this latest episode, a brother and sister twins have this rare genetic disorder, hypertrichosis. A "genetic quirk" as what Catherine called it. They had hair all over their body, the sister's condition was worse, she was covered with hair all over with the exception of her mouth and eyes. Their father abandoned them, their mother gave up living with them and the sister had to hide herself from the rest of the world. The brother finally found the love of his life and then got himself killed cos the brother of his betrothed could not accept him. He was his best friend.

Call me emotional or call me stupid for getting so affected by a mere TV show but I actually teared when I watched it. The thing that affected me the most was what Michelle, the girlfriend of the brother said, "He was the nicest man, the best lover and my best friend. Its like he was trying to made up for his physical imperfection." How many times have you met a beautifully made person and yet got really disgusted by his/her ugly characters? And that got me thinking. I have always believed that there are a reason to everything and so thinking along this line, there should also be a reason for such so-called "freaks of nature" What if they are not freaks? What if they are there to remind us that physical deformities is not a factor for character deformities? Or perhaps just to remind us that we are the ones doing the staring instead of the ones being stared at.

Incidentally, I have an appointment with my hairstylist to cut my tresses today. An omen perhaps?

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Chapter one

The first day of a New Year and the first thing that I did when I woke up was to pay off my internet bills, unpaid since I don't know when. The last time I used my internet banking was in Sep so I guess thats the last time I paid for my bills, kaoz.. I am glad that Singnet did not choose to terminate the service of such a lousy paying customer!! In anycase, thats not the way I intend to kick off my new year; who in the right mind would want to start off the new year paying bills.. Hah!

Ok, enough whining about bills and stuff...

I was glad, perhaps glad was an understatement, more like very thrilled that I joined Eelin and her parents to the dinner party last night, I won a portable DVD player! Yippee!! It was the annual Navy countdown party. Uncle Tommy used to be a Major in the Navy and I think his current job still has some dealings with our defense department and thats why he will be sponsored a table every year. Each table cost like $2.5k and each ticket cost $250.. Not wanting to waste the tickets, he would be asking Eelin and Wolly to get people to go. This year however Wolly and Ami went back to Mexico and there were 2 seats empty... What a waste. The food was great, the reception was great, the people there were very fun and sporting, the service was great, the food was yummy and the ambience and settings were terrific. Its a real ballroom setting.

But I think the best thing that the party was the emcee. Its a pity we did not manage to catch his name but he was terrific! He was hilarious and managed to send a room of serious Navy men to tears and stiches from laughing! Hahaha! He had this very rubbery and latexy face and just by looking at him, you would feel like laughing. But the best was that he knew how to play up to the audience. He knew when to push his jokes and when to back off. Eelin was just saying she would go again if this guy is the emcee again. The previous time I went, Victor Khoo was the emcee and trust me when I said he sucked. Big time. That guy seemed to only know how to make racist jokes. At certain points, I had this feeling that the audience were actually embarassed about this jokes since there were quite a number of Indians there and they seemed to be the butt of his jokes all the time. What an ass..

Anway, its a great way to spend the passing of the old year.

A new year bring new hopes, new resolutions (though I have never managed to keep them), new wishes, new ambitions, new everything except a new figure perhaps.. heh heh. Whats old shall be old and I intend to keep it that way. Some things are meant to be savoured only when they are old, friendships for example. The older the friends are, the more valuable and priceless they will be. To all my friends, I hope you are reading this, all I want to say is that you have been really great to me, tolerating my stupid and blur antics and blunders and headaches that I caused as a result. I am really glad to know you guys for so long. I am sorry if I seemed cold and distant and sometimes even forgot your birthdays and stuff like that. Its not meant to be on purpose, knowing how blur and forgetful that I am. People like Nee, Eelin, Alex, Cons, Weili. You are my closest girlfriends. Thank you. And then there are the close friends that I met in cyberspace. People like DK, Gizzy, Zhen, HJ, Corny. Time spent knowing you people may be short but still I count my blessings that I am able to know you during my lifetime. And then there are my ardent fans reading my blog, checking out on me regularly to see if I am still alive and kicking. Robyn, Phillip, rijac, Paddy, mr noobz, mr cobalt, tanlih thanks, you all are the reasons why this blog is still alive and kicking actually.

Ok, I need to stop, this is starting to sound more and more like some radio dedications made by some teenage school girls and goosebumps are starting to sprout on me.

As I was saying before getting distracted by the long dedication of some sort, some things are meant to be savoured when old and there are other things that are meant to be hidden but remembered as it gets older. Bad and painful experiences, that I intend to remember for the rest of my life, which I doubt is difficult considering how much I was affected by them. Lessons learnt from them are invaluable and shall serve as a kind of guide for me in my life journey, warning me that I should open my eyes wider when giving my trust. I am too naive and these scars shall forever be there to remind me about my foolishness and stupidity and naivety, warning me about pitholes when dealing with people, ensuring that I would look before I leap so as not to fall into another pithole of snakes and pikes again. Getting up from a pithole is painful and though time may heal the wounds, the scars will still remain forever. I don want to fall into another pithole again.

Thats it, enough with the whinning. Happy new year everyone! May the new year usher in new hopes and may all that you wanted and desire come true in the new year for you!