This is one entry that is way overdue. The rationale and the consequences of blogging.
Before going on however, I must say something about my reasons for blogging.
I started this blog cos I was out of job for a while and I was feeling very bored with nothing to do at home. I had this fantastic iBook and I had my sister's digital camera to play with so I figured might as well do something useful with all these gadgets. Thats why my very first few entries were filled with pictures, just some random pictures that I can take and find on my sister's PC.
Then, when I had a job and was soon working, I found that I don have much time to play around with the gadgets much and there wasn't enough pictures for me to post onto my blog. I soon began to write about the things I see and the thoughts that I had. And the feelings that I went through. As such, the later entries of my blog almost always expressed my emotions. For a while, I was rather depressed and those entries were rather dark. During other times, I was pissed or irritated with certain things and those entries were filled with anger. And then there were times when I was curious about stuff and those were about my curiosty
The thing is, I write when I feel strongly about things. At that precise moment. My blog has changed from a tool for me to experience with my gadgets to a tool for me to express myself and to vent my feelings.
You might ask, "why blog, you are exposing your inner thoughts to your audience?"
Why? I have no idea. I am ok with the idea that there are you busybodies out there who might be curious with my life and want to read about my feelings and experiences. However, I must say that most of the time, I am not who I really am in cyberspace. Most people who only know me in this digital landscape will almost always agree that I am a very fierce and foul-mouthed bitch. But I must defend myself here in saying that I am actually a very timid person. I don like to get into arguments with anyone, preferring to take the easier approach of shying away from controntations. I guess its the luxury of not having a real face-to-face confrontation which made me more daring and more willing to get into arguments online.
But I digress.
The blogging atmosphere in Singapore is still very conversative. Just take a look at the big hoo-ha that SPG caused when she posts erotic pictures of herself and talked about her sexual conquests. Its really not a big deal actually, if one think hard about her actions. She is just a fun-loving girl who dares to express herself and is not worried about the opinions of others, even though our society find her actions a little hard to accept. As such, there is such a big commotion. In fact, I would say I can come up with quite a couple of blogs that are even more explicit than hers and most people in their society don even know about them. No big commotions, not big hoo-ha, no nothing. Nada. Examples? Try Nymphogirl. (Note: this is one very explicit blog, do not read if you are a tight-assed prick who gets offended easily.) Now, thats one very horny girl! And I believe she remains very much invisible in the sea of blogs in the US, even though she really is very, very explicit in her descriptions.
Another thing which I noticed about the blogging atmosphere in Singapore is that people tend to believe the personas that these bloggers adopt in cyberspace. Take for example Xiaxue. She appeared like some loud-mouthed bitch. She likes to whack people and made fun of them while blogging. And just look at the hate-fans that she has. Goodness! Funny thing is, she does not even sound like a bitch in real life. She actually sound quite sweet. Weird.
And then there is the consequences of the stuff that you said on your blog. Its inadvertable that I would touch on this topic, considering the very big hoo-ha that a couple of scholars caused with their criticisms of certain races and a certain public board. And then there are the 3 jokers who were recently charged under the newly implemented Seditious Act, which incidentally, is a joke by itself. At least thats what I think but again, thats another story.
I mean, its not right that these people are making racism like child's play. I am not a very extreme person but I do condemn racism. I think it should be the first thing to be eradicated in our civilized societies. Then again, the very definition of civilized and racism are filled with much ambiguity in the first place. Again, I digress. To get to the point, I don like to be extreme but racism deserves no tolerance.
However, to charge someone for what they said in their blogs is a tad too ridiculous. Blogs are just an intangible avenue for people to vent their feelings, like me. Or just basically to "talk" to someone about some crap, like what I am doing now, crapping with you. Most of the time, I believe people don mean what they say on their blogs unless they have some agenda. Furthermore, one of the 3 bloggers who made these racist remarks are just in their teens, for Christ sake! Whoever meant what you said in your teens! I don even remember what the hell I said while in my teens!
What I am saying here is that, people should not take blogs seriously.. Its one thing to enjoy the blogs that you are reading and another to actually charge the blogger for something that he made on his personal cyberworld. There are 2 choices that one can do if one does not agree with the blogger. One, crap loudly about his blog or just basically fuck off and don read. Its your choice. The whole idea of getting fucked left, right, centre over something that I wrote on my blog is so ridiculous and scary that I think I am going to change my philosophy of writing what I feel on my blog cos its my blog. I don think I own my blog anymore. There is this nagging feeling that I am being watched and I hate the idea that I have to think about the consequences of my words in a place where I rant and don meant what I rant about. This is just so crazy.