I am stting in my room alone on this warm night, trying to understand the waves of emotions that are currently sweeping through at the moment, trying to understand myself and my feelings better.
I really don know what to do from this point onwards. Everyday I lived, its always the same. I am always feeling so empty. Why?
Nothing seem to satisfy me...
I am always feeling so lonely, always trying to find some answers to some obscure questions when I have no idea what are they in the first place. It is indeed confusing.
Everyday is the passing of seconds, minutes and hours and I have no idea why I allow myself to go through all these. I am so confused. And so alone. Why?
The only way I can express myself is through this empty white space. Whenever I am pensive, I will come here and let my fingers do the talking. I don express myself verbally well and its very difficult to say out what I want.
I am lonely. I guess everyone is, to a certain extent. And people have their own way to eliminate their loneliness. I just have not find a way to eliminate my loneliness.
Its so ironic that in this world of such advance technology, where there are a million and one ways of communication, there will be people like me existing. People who are lonely. People who cannot find a most suitable way to communicate with others. People who just need to find their stand in their world. People who are so scared of being forgotten.
Sometimes I just want to shout out loud to the world passing out there, moving away from me. I exist and I want to be known. Please do not leave me behind. Please do not forget me.
Why is it that the more material I own, the more people I know, the more I got, the more I do, the lonelier I feel? Please tell me what should I do to eliminate this loneliness?