Jen makes the best of a Brad situation
Jennifer Aniston says she'll love Brad Pitt "for the rest of my life." But try as she might to be gracious and strong, the actress can't help but weep when she considers that Angelina Jolie might be carrying his child.
Writer Leslie Bennetts brings up the rumor in the new issue of Vanity Fair, where Aniston talks for the first time about her breakup.
Aniston, who has avoided reading the tabloids, looks as if she's been stabbed in the heart. "Her eyes well up and spill over and she cries for several long minutes," writes Bennetts. Aniston says she'd hoped to spend the last year being pregnant, and that she resented claims she didn't want to start a family.
"A man divorcing would never be accused of choosing career over children," she says. "That really p--ed me off. I've never in my life said I didn't want to have children. I did and I do and I will!"
Aniston still calls Pitt "a fantastic man. I don't regret any of it. ... I really do hope that someday we can be friends again."
But Aniston's pals say Pitt checked out of the marriage as soon as he met Jolie on the set of "Mr. & Mrs. Smith." They note that he even failed to make the taping of her final episode of "Friends." When she reached out for her husband's support, she says, "He just wasn't there for me."
Does Aniston buy his claim that he didn't cheat on her before they separated?
"I choose to believe my husband," says Aniston, who nevertheless was hurt by that W magazine portfolio of Pitt and Jolie playing husband and wife.
"There's a sensitivity chip that's missing [in him]," she says. "I can ... imagine Brad having absolutely no clue why people would be appalled by it."
She also was wounded by the pictures of Pitt with Jolie and her son, Maddox, on vacation in Africa. "I can't say it was one of the highlights of my year," she says. "[But] you joke and say, 'What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.'"
She also can't resist a wry dig at Pitt's new blond dye job.
"Billy Idol called," she says. "He wants his look back."
Its so hard to forget..