Sunday, August 14, 2005

Hatred and anger

You know how sometimes when you are really angry and you feel like destroying something? How you want to hurt the people around you so that they will be made to suffer exactly the kind of anger and hurt that you are suffering? How you want people to know how you are feeling at the moment so that they will be able to know what you are going through at the moment cos there simply are no words to describe how you are feeling at the moment?

Well, I am feeling like this at the moment.

The anger just builds up slowly at first, little by little. Its just a tiny irritation initially. Then, like a fireball rolling down the hill, the momentum builds up and then anger becomes uncontrollable. Finally, it becomes a large fireball and there is no way of putting out the fire and it just starts to burn down and destroy whatever that stand in its path or whatever that are near it.

As the fire burns uncontrollably, the fumes become higher and the object of my anger turns into the object of my hatred. Everything just burst into flames and by this time, there is nothing that can be done to tame or put out the fire. The only way would be to wait for the fireball to burn out by itself.

I felt like tearing myself apart, and hurt the people whom I care around me. Whoever speaks to me are going to get hurting words from me. I don give a fucking care, you can choose not to talk to me, so fuck off if you get hurt. No one cares, so why should I give a bloody damn.

I hate you, you know who you are.

8 comments:

DK said...

Why you hate me? I only never ask you out for dinner tonight only mah. Sorry lah. Don't hate me lah. Dinner tomolo? :D

Anonymous said...

Hate is such a toxic emotion. You know you can do without it, so?

HJ said...

Hey what you describe what happen to a ger i noe i think... that why she never tok to me again...

Here how the story goes...

In a tutorial

Girl A: hey, the tutor is such a bitch
HJ: Just like you lor.
Girl A: ... ... ...

Since then Girl A never talk to me ever since... i guess anger in her is just like anger in you...

Chill down... still got us around to cheer u up... me, dk, dm, brian, zhen square, patrick and irene... hmmmzzz...

DK said...

Hong Jia is right. You still got us around.

And if that is not enough, you still go the dancing bananas!!! :D

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v392/dk99/SPUG/bananadance.gif

(damn, cannot attach pic here)

rijac said...

iris. hope your anger has subsided. hatred is a terrible emotion to have. it eats away at your soul.

Iris said...

I know hatred destroys but sometimes its very difficult to tame the emotions, and anger is the hardest way to tame.. With that comes hatred towards the person that cause so much anguish to me..

Beaver21 said...

one way to overcome hatred is love. I know it's easier said than done... but do try it. There's a limit to human love... but God's love is unconditional and without limit. Don't slay me for preaching... but do give it some thot.

dm said...

AMEN!