Hatred and anger

You know how sometimes when you are really angry and you feel like destroying something? How you want to hurt the people around you so that they will be made to suffer exactly the kind of anger and hurt that you are suffering? How you want people to know how you are feeling at the moment so that they will be able to know what you are going through at the moment cos there simply are no words to describe how you are feeling at the moment?

Well, I am feeling like this at the moment.

The anger just builds up slowly at first, little by little. Its just a tiny irritation initially. Then, like a fireball rolling down the hill, the momentum builds up and then anger becomes uncontrollable. Finally, it becomes a large fireball and there is no way of putting out the fire and it just starts to burn down and destroy whatever that stand in its path or whatever that are near it.

As the fire burns uncontrollably, the fumes become higher and the object of my anger turns into the object of my hatred. Everything just burst into flames and by this time, there is nothing that can be done to tame or put out the fire. The only way would be to wait for the fireball to burn out by itself.

I felt like tearing myself apart, and hurt the people whom I care around me. Whoever speaks to me are going to get hurting words from me. I don give a fucking care, you can choose not to talk to me, so fuck off if you get hurt. No one cares, so why should I give a bloody damn.

I hate you, you know who you are.