Saturday, August 26, 2006

Why me?

The feeling of knowing that you are a substitute is exactly like having a red hot knife cutting through your heart, just like cutting through butter. It just leave you breathless. I never thought I would be in such a situation.

It feels so much like a betrayal.

The question asked to me was, "Did you ever think that it would be otherwise?"

Am I supposed to take comfort in this? Am I supposed to forgive cos I was already forewarned?

Somehow, somewhere, it has to end.

Why me? Why did it have to be me? Did I do anything wrong? Why me?!

I want to cry, but somehow the tears just will not flow. I want to yell out, to scream out my pain but no sound come out.


Anonymous said...

Its a very miserable feeling to find urself being the "subsitute".. you are a good/nice lady that deserves much better things.. important thing is to move on from here.. the more you think the more hurt you'll get. :(

wish you fast recovery from unpleasentness, remember you still have some caring friend out there, do talk to us to relief you pains.


putitthisway said...

very sad.... well, cry it all out and move need closure on this.