New Blog

Dear readers,

Its with much pleasure that I announced the URL of my new blog at blurfroggie.wordpress.com

Why did I decided to change? Well, read the new one and you will know.

See you guys there then!

Ms Froggie

I love my new mushroom lamp

I love my new red mushroom lamp, its so cute!

USB operated hor, meaning its using my laptop to power it, cool right!

One freaky night

There was this function last night and as usual the boss wanted to go Dragonfly at St James after that. I tell ya, every since he found out about the place, we have been going there at least once every single week. The guys are the VIPs of that place so every time, we go there, there will be seats ready for us. Last night, the club was totally packed and we could not even get through the entrance even though we had seats ready for us inside. In the end, we had to squeeze through the staff entrance to go inside. It was real crazy.

Anyway, something freaky happened during the night.

One of the boss' friend came and join us. He looked ok and decent enough. He was rather gentlemanly too, or so I thought.

As usual, we had a little drinking session. I downed a third of a glass of Martell, straight up on the rocks with no mixer. It sure burned, I could feel the liquid burning down my throat down to my gastric.

Now, normally I would be able to hold this well, but for some reason I felt a little tipsy after the glass. Maybe from the lack of food before drinking I guess. Anyway, I was getting a little flushed and as with all alcohols, it really brought out the bold side of me. I felt myself getting a little high and very bold and cheeky.

And then MO asked me to try to get that friend of my boss drunk. Apparently, he does not get drunk easily and as I was feeling very egoistic about myself, I challenged him to get me drunk. I downed another half a glass and made him finish the rest of the glass. He did it easily. Thats when I noticed that he seemed to like to hug me. At that point, I thought he was just being friendly, I mean I was a little tipsy so it should be alright for him to steady me by hugging me. So I hugged him back. His hands were all over me though, but I was too confused to care.

And then someone knocked my hands while I was holding my glass of wine, twice. The glass spilled out its contents onto my hands. Thats when the freaky thing happened.

That gentleman saw it and then smiling, he grabbed my hands and then licked my hand from the wrist to my elbow! I was stunned, no matter how drunk I was! Gosh, he felt sticky!

Then he stood up and smiled at me again! Argh! I did not know how to react or what to do, I looked at him and smiled back then offered him more drink. He declined and then hugged me again! Woah, now thats going too far!

So I made some excuse and moved away. To another freaky incident.

I moved inwards and ended up standing beside the other table. There was a bunch of young guys there and one of them saw me. He approached me and placed his hand around my waist and shouted into my ears.

"Hey, you looked drunk." Followed by some unintelligible words.

Then he introduced himself which I promptly forgot his name.

And then he asked me," Do you have a boyfriend? Can I have your number please?" And then pushed his mobile to me. I laughed and said, " I am too old for you!"

He still did not give up, and continued to hug me tightly. My friend who was standing beside me saw this and asked if I knew him. I told her no and I had no idea who the hell was that!

And that was when my knights in shining armors came to my rescue. Mike and Winston, on seeing that I was in some kinda fix, slowly squeezed through the crowd and came over. I saw them and quickly pulled them near me.

Then I turned over to that young punk and smiled at him. I pulled him close and shouted to him. "You want my number? Get it from my brothers here!"

The stupid drunk was too deaf to hear me and asked me,"Are these your boyfriend?"

I looked at him and shouted again, "These are my brothers! Go get my number from them if you want!" And then I pulled my friend to the toilet.

I did not know what happened after that but the punk's friends on seeing Mike and Winston (they really looked menacing then) pulled him away from our table and I saw them going to the exit.

I tell ya, never underestimate the power of alcohol, it really make you do crazy things on impulse....

Just so you know

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I dont know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feelings taking control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before you go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to
Be around you
Theres so much I can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away

This emptyness is killing me
I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Lookin back I realize it was always there to be spoken
Now I'm waiting here
Been waiting here

What do I want?

"Too often, the thing that you want most is the thing that you can't have. Desire, leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life.

But as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don know what they want."

Maybe thats why I am still suffering?

I am going to get a new phone

My phone underwent a traumatizing incident while I was in Thailand.

I was sitting merrily on the boat during the boat ride when I received an SMS. It was from my mum and so automatically I replied her. Just as I pressed "sent", I looked up and there was this guy on the boat beside us who was dipping his pail into the river water. The next thing I knew was I was soaked in river water. For the uninitiated, it was Songkran, the Thail's new year, also known as the water festival and one can just throw water on anyone that you see.

And so me and my poor K750i was soaked in water. As I wiped off the water, I saw a water stain on the screen. There was nothing I can do but hope nothing was wrong with my phone. After a night in the cold hotel room, the water stain was gone.

And this gave me the perfect excuse to get a new phone! I have been wanting to get a new phone but just did not have an excuse to get replace my old phone. With this incident, I figured I might as well get a new phone since its gonna spoil soon.

My choices are as followed:

1) K800i
2) W880i
3) K810i

And the winner: the ultra cool K810i!!!!

I think its another love at first sight phone, this baby is so cool! Just look at the buttons, and the ultra slimness. And most of all, the Cyber Shot camer, 3.2 pixels of it!

I am so gonna get this phone. Now, the only concern is the price..

Besides this, I cannot bear to let go of my faithful K750i, shes been with me through thick and thin, dry or wet and just replacing her just seems so cruel..

Sigh.. choices, choices again.

I am leaving

All my bags are packed
I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breaking
Its early morn
The taxis waiting
Hes blowing his horn
Already I'm so lonesome
I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Theres so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Then close your eyes
I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

But, I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Floating mass of shapeless feelings

Love is a very strange thing, the more you try to go in search for it, the more elusive it will be. And then when you least expected it, it just came like a whirlwind and hit you straight in the face by surprise. Sometimes its a pleasant surprise while other times, its quite a nasty shock.

Decay was just talking about When You Love Someone and promising that he will be giving all he has for the person that he loves. Which I think is a very sweet and very sentimental thing. Hes got comment that love is not just about giving, its about giving and taking in the correct proportion and someone also commented that she would be rather freaked when the man who loves her gives her too much cos she is scared that he might just turned into a psycho in the event that that relationship does not work out.

What is love?

Perhaps its about giving and taking but ultimately when you love someone so much, you would want to give so much to him that you do not even mind hurting yourself in the process. Because you have already lost yourself in love, you don exist anymore, your existence is purely just for him and he is everything to you.

That said, the ultimate expression of love however is not to have but rather to let go. Many times I heard the expression that the more you hold and control, the more you will lose. Maybe this should be what love is about, to let go so whoever you love will be happy and free. Because, love is so elusive that its like water, you cannot hold on to water, the more you try to hold it, the more it will seep through your fingers and then you will be left with nothing, nothing at all.

And because you love him so much, it certainly hurt to let him go. But because at the end of the day, you just want to see a smile on his face that your hurt does not matter anymore, you just want him to be happy. To know that he is free and happy.

So you tell me, how can something so pretty and warm as love be so conflicting and enigmatic?

Maybe there are no true and concrete definitions of love, maybe its supposed to be like a floating transparent mass of shapeless feelings. Maybe thats why its so beautiful because there is no way to quantify and define it. Maybe thats why we humans are always so confused about how we should go about loving someone and how we should express our love. Maybe the best expression of love is just to take it easy, not rushing it, not forcing this floating transparent mass of shapeless feelings into a solid container in the hope that your love will give you the result that you want.

Because forcing it will just bring more tears and more pain.

Lodged bone

Today was my birthday and everything was fine during the day. Watched Aein, a Korean romance show, cried during the show from the agonizing but torrid love affair, enjoyed a bowl of hot self made noodles with sausages in the morning and went to try out my new thongs bought from Thailand.

All in all, quite a satisfactory way to spend my 27th birthday morning.

In the noon, I went out with Mr D, wore my new halter top, attracted some unwanted attention but still had loads of fun. Then I insisted to have Japanese food for dinner and so we went to Tampines mall to have dinner.

Thats when the my birthday starts to go down the hill.

When we reached the mall, it was packed with shitloads of people. We were looking around looking for a Japanese restaurant and then found one. Genki Sushi. I rather like this sushi chain cos for one, they served cheaper sushi than the normal Sakae Sushi and for the other, their food is rather nice for their price.

We looked at the menu and order some of my favorite food. The unagi tofu yanagawa was one of the item.
Now, the unagi pieces being served were supposed to be without bones. Even if they were with bones, they were supposed to be easy to chew and swallow.

No, it wasn't meant to be.

When the dish came, I had 2 reactions. First, I was very disappointed with the size of the dish, it had shrunk, including the unagi pieces. From the large chunks that you see on the photo, it has shrunk to about a quarter. Second, it wasn't even on a hotplate at all, it was on a plastic plate, disguised poorly to look like a hotplate.

Anyway, not wanting to waste my money and the food, I chomped down my first mouthful. And then the second mouthful. Which consisted of the pathetic unagi pieces, egg and toufu. And a piece of unagi bone.

It stuck and I could not get it up or down, no matter how hard I tried. I swallowed a whole piece of sushi, drank half a can of coke, and even almost drank some white vinegar if not for the fact that restaurant did not have any. I even resorted to making myself puke out my dinner hoping to push out that piece of stupid bone None of it helps. The darn piece of bone was just stuck fast in my throat and it hurt, a lot. Every time I swallowed saliva, or breathe or just turned my head, I would feel that darn thing lodged in my throat and it felt like there was a needle there. It was painful as hell.

No choice, I had to look for professional help. We went to a clinic to seek an expert.

The doc put on a pair of glove and asked me, "Do you gag easily?"

"Erm, I just puked out my dinner so even if I gag, I doubt there would be anything coming out."

Doc gave a short laugh, asked me to say ahhhh with my mouth opened widely and then proceeded to probe my throat with his hand, feeling for the bone.

Still, he could not take out that darn thing.

So he went to get a long tweezer and asked me to open my mouth again. This time, he probed deeper and a moment later, he withdrew that bloody thing from my throat. It was transparent and bent at the end. It was about 1cm long.

I looked at the thing and said, "This bloody thing made me puked out my dinner."

Doc laughed again and I went to foot his fees.

Cost of the dinner that I puked out : $46
Cost of doc's fee for taking out the stupid bone: $50

So all in all, I spent $46 on my dinner, including that stupid fish bone and then to puke out my dinner and another $50 to take out that bone from my throat.

What a way to spend my birthday.

Happy Birthday to ME!

Happy Birthday to Me!

Another year gone since my memorable birthday entry.

Sigh, I am still the same person, had not done anything memorable actually. Its rather sad actually. The only difference perhaps is that I put on a couple of kilograms.

Now, thats even sadder.

Anyway, this year, I think I am happier than last year, which is a good sign and a bad sign actually. Good cos I am more optimistic, bad cos when I am happy, I tend to eat and thus contribute to my expanding waistline. Argh. I am like stuck in a Catch-22 situation.

So, my dear fans, ms froggie is now officially 27 years old this year, can round off to be 30 years old already.

Shit.